wondering

Last night was bad. Truett went to sleep like a dream and I thought that we had finally turned the corner with him getting out of bed. Then 3am hit and we spent the next three hours dealing with him getting out of bed and coming into our room and screaming and asking for water, and crying. It was awful.
And, as I'm typing, bedtime is only an hour away and Sam and I find ourselves at odds with how to deal with the issue. I want to find a way to keep him in his bed, like another crib tent, even if they were recalled. Sam wants to move him back in with Jem. But I think we have two different goals. Sam wants to sleep the whole way through the night without interruption and I want to get up early in the morning and have time to myself without any children for an hour. Actually, we'd both love to sleep all night and have some quiet in the mornings. The difference is that Sam doesn't operate well on less sleep and I don't handle my children well if I don't have some time to just be a normal person before becoming Mom for the next twelve hours.
So as bedtime approaches and I know that I will try it Sam's way, I'm sitting here wondering what my new goal should be. Actually, I'm wondering if I can let go of what I want without feeling resentful. I'm wondering if my chlid will ever sleep and stay in his room. I'm wondering what else I can try to get us past this. I'm wondering if my child is seeking out attention at night because I don't give him enough during the day. I'm wondering who will emerge victorious from this battle. And I'm wondering if I'm even up for the challenge.
Guess I'll find out in t-minus 37 minutes. 

photo by: Beca  http://www.flickr.com/photos/rebeca_p/5044872613/