Thursday, April 19, 2012

confession

I changed my schedule around today. Normally, I feed Caia her bottle and mushed up pears at noon. While she eats, the boys run around and play by themselves. I then make lunch for the them and for myself, and, by the time we are finished eating, it is one o'clock and time for tv shows to start. 
It would be easier to have all of us eat at the same time. I am more than capable of eating a peanut butter and honey sandwich with one hand while I hold her bottle with the other. But there is a reason that I don't feed everyone at noon and here it is, here is my confession:
I feed my boys at 12:30 because if I fed them at noon, I would have one more half-hour in my day to figure out what to do with them (i.e. play with them). And by the time 12:30 rolls around I am already feeling burnt out and playing is the last thing on my mind.
But today, I decided to stop being an awful, self-centered person and change things up a bit. As reflected in some recent posts, I have been struggling with Tru's behavior lately. And I started to wonder how much of his bad behavior is tied into how little one-on-one time he has with me. I'm pretty sure a good bit of it has to do with his age, but I'm also pretty sure that my little dragon craves attention and will do anything to get it. So today I fed everyone at the same time and then I played with my boys. And when 1 o'clock rolled around I asked them if they were ready for shows and Tru said, "Not yet Mommy." This is a child who will do anything for shows and in that response, I saw how much he has been longing for my attention. Like I said, I'm an awful person. But at least I'm working on it. That has to count for something.

Update:

Tonight at dinner, Sam asked the boys what the best part of their day was. Jem told him about finding one of my hair-ties during nap time and getting to wear it on his wrist. Truett talked about painting, which we didn't even do. Did anyone mention playing pillow monster with Mommy or our fabulous game of Simon Says? Nope. I lost out to an elastic hair-tie and an activity that didn't even occur. Such is my life.

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